progress

firstly i would like to say a huge thank you to everyone who took the time to read my first blog post, all the kind people who commented and to everyone who retweeted my blog on to their own twitter pages. it really means a lot to see individuals taking time out of their own day to do something for someone else, and a complete stranger at that!

i know it has been a few months since my first blog post and a lot has gone on in those months! but i would like to just point out that whatever i write in my blog posts about how im feeling is not in any way a plea for sympathy, that is not the kind of person i am, i just want to help raise awareness and let people know you are never alone!

these few months have been pretty crazy, ive had days where i cry and just feel down and other days where im happy and laughing, im still trying to fully come to terms with the fact i am unwell but i know this is something that isnt going to happen overnight, but i still have the support of my amazing family to pick me up when im feeling down and also a great boyfriend who keeps me happy on a daily basis so it cant be all bad!

back in december and through january i had a pretty bad time, i was having trouble sleeping, was suffering pretty bad with anxiety and my fatigue was getting me very down, i visited the doctor who gave me some tablets to help settle some of my symptoms and to also help me sleep better at night, they were only temporary and did help me for the month or so i was on them.
i finally got an appointment with an MS nurse who gave me lots of advice and information and helped give me a better understanding of what MS is and the symptoms. she gave me some tablets called amantadine for my fatigue, she did warn me that there was a chance they would not work as they did only work in 1 in 3 MS sufferers, i was grateful to be given the opportunity for some help and left the appointment with high spirits.

i was taking the amantadine for 6 weeks and just recently have stopped taking them as unfortunately they did not help my fatigue, i am still suffering very bad with it and always feel like i havent had a nights sleep and find work at times a great struggle, i am still trying to find a way of getting a better control over my fatigue as it can be extremely debilitating.

not only do i suffer with fatigue but also get tremours and bladder issues where i am always needing to go for a wee, at first these didnt bother me but they seem to be getting worse and more obvious. i have an appointment with my MS nurse on the 13th march to discuss my treatment option and when i will be starting the treatment, whilst there i will speak to her about getting some kind of medication that can control my other symptoms.

i am feeling nervous about starting treatment but also very excited, this will help in reducing the relapses and is something i am looking forward to beginning.

when i first found out i had MS it made me feel like i had to put my life on standstill and made me think that i wouldnt have much of a life as my illness would take over, but i have come to realise that is infact not the case, i can still live my life as i was before and still have a smile on my face! i am moving forward and trying to stay positive, i am going on holiday with my sister and some friends in june and am planning on moving in with my boyfriend come july which are things that i thought i would never be able to do.

all i want to say to you all is to stay positive and keep smiling, somedays it is hard and you will always have the odd few days where you feel like its going all wrong but you can still pick yourself back up again and just have fun :)

thanks again to all reading my blog i really do appreciate it, i will write again after the 13th to let you all know how im getting on :)

still smiling in all my photos thanks to a great family and a great boyfriend :)